Runfessions over Coffee

April is drawing to a close which means it's time for Runfessions! It's that monthly cleansing ritual, hosted by Marcia, that allows us to sanitize our soles (pun intended) in preparation for a fresh new month ahead. Grab a cup of coffee and sit down. I've got some good ones--we probably should be doing this over cocktails!

If we were having coffee, I'd runfess that I gave my husband this Squirrel Whisperer mug after an incident in our fireplace. His story is that one night a few weeks ago, there was a loud ruckus in the fireplace with sticks and grass falling down the chimney. Concerned that an animal was building a nest in the flue, he built a fire, "hoping" as he put it, to "smoke him out". I can't speak of what happened next but let's just say I found out about this after I caught him cleaning out the fireplace crematorium in the morning. Somehow, I slept through the whole thing. Don't you find that odd?

You may have noticed that I've been wearing some new, bright running clothes from InkNBurn. If we were having coffee, I'd runfess that yes, I've been splurging. And it isn't as if I needed more running clothes--although really, do we ever have enough? The truth is I have been feeling so bad about my running that I decided to treat myself to some fun gear. I love the way these clothes look and fit. Don't ever let anyone tell you that a great outfit doesn't give you confidence.

I haven't shared this on the blog but if we were having coffee, I'd runfess that I have been on a leave of absence from work for the past couple of weeks. I had been struggling with RA-related fatigue so much that I couldn't keep up with the pace at my job. I've been trying sort it out and figure out what I need to do. My husband (aka the Squirrel whisperer) has not been happy about it at all. He's afraid I won't go back. He says that if I'm too "sick" to work, I shouldn't be running either.

If we were having coffee, I'd tell you that since I was going to be off work for a while, I signed up for the newest Deepak and Oprah 21 day meditation. I figured I'd have no excuses not to meditate and maybe it might even help me! However, I runfess that I haven't done one session yet. I keep getting the reminder emails--I think we are on Day 19-- and I just move them to the trash. Releasing the mantras one message at a time.

I guess this isn't going to be a surprise to anyone, but if we were having coffee I'd runfess that while I continue to train for Grandmas Marathon in June, the probability of me actually running it is pretty low. I've actually told Becky and my husband that I'm not running it. Yes, the run/walk intervals that I've been using to complete my runs are working well for me, but they are not fast and they are not easy. Realistically, my head tells me that 26.2 is going to be really tough. My heart is having trouble saying no to 26.2 and meaning it. This week, I canceled my hotel room at the start line--there was an April 26 deadline for that one. I still have a room reserved in Duluth, which I'll need to make a decision on by May 16. I'm so DNS-averse that this is a very difficult decision for me. The struggle is real. Don't count me out yet, but don't plan on seeing me in Minnesota.

What would you tell me if you were runfessing? Have you ever DNS'd a race? DNS'd a meditation series? Do you buy too many running clothes? Any animal horror stories?

I'm linking this post up with Marcia as well as Fairytales and Fitness and Running on Happy for the Friday Five!

We had coffee today because I will be out of town next weekend and won't be able to link up with the Ultimate Coffee Date, hosted by Coco and Deborah! But be sure to check it out!