"You can't do another marathon."
"You're too old to do another marathon."
"That PF is going to come roaring back."
"Seriously? Another marathon?"
"What are you trying to prove?"
"What are you thinking?"
Those voices used to get under my skin. At this point, as I consider my 5th marathon, I just look at them as just a nuisance.
Self-doubt hit the road.
When I told Becky that I signed up for Grandma's, which is in June, her response was: "we know how to train you for a marathon."
No doubt, no concern, no "you're crazy", just a statement of fact.
Others have asked me, why Grandma's? Why Duluth, Minnesota? Isn't it hilly?
I'll tell you why. I have a connection to the region. My in-laws are from Superior, Wisconsin, which is right across the bay from Duluth. Many years ago, when my husband and I were youngsters, dating, we took a couple summer trips to the region. We visited Grandma's (it's a restaurant) and had lunch there. There was information about the marathon, but I wasn't yet a runner.
A marathon? Who would do that?
We all know the answer to that question...
Yep, Duluth is hilly, but the marathon course is pretty flat. I'm pretty excited about this one. June in northern Minnesota is usually pretty cool. Of course, not last year. It was 80+. I'm hoping that was a fluke.
When making my decision, I also considered my training. I won't have to get serious until February or March, and that's when our weather here in Chicago starts to moderate. Not training in the brutal cold of winter or the heat of summer is pretty appealing too.
What if my PF returns? Or a new injury pops up?
I know how to train for a marathon if I'm injured. I ran Big Sur in April with not a lot of miles under my belt. Battling PF, I did a lot of cross-training. Yes, I ran my dream marathon and finished strong. No, it wasn't even close to a PR. But that was never the goal. I had fun and I felt good.
Currently, I don't have goals for Grandma's. My goals will evolve, depending on my training and how my feet feel. Plus, by setting goals this early I might set myself up to fail. I don't want to give any encouragement to the voices inside my head that tell me I can't do it.
You know what? I've got nothing to prove. I'm looking forward to a road trip and a weekend with a running friend.
Anything else will be a bonus. But the self-doubt?
It's going to stay home.
Do you know that voice? The one that says you can't? How do you shut it down?
I'm linking up with DebRuns for Wednesday Word, which is nuisance. I'm also linking up with Debbie, Lora, Rachel, and Susie for Coaches' Corner.