Once again, I sit down to rewrite a post that was already written. My husband and I were talking after dinner, sharing a glass of wine. I told him a story about my run today.
I was running in the park. I approached a lady who was texting on her phone, oblivious to anything around her. She had a little dog on a leash, which was fully extended. She didn't see me coming, but the dog did. Teeth showing, growling, he charged at me. Given the chance, I'm pretty sure he would have ripped my leg off. She looked up as I cried out, "your dog!". She didn't know what to do and I made a wide berth around her. Over my music, I heard her say "sorry". I just gave her "the look".
You know the look. If you've been a runner for any length of time, you've thrown that look at cars who blow stop signs. At cyclists who ride a little too close for comfort. And at clueless dog owners.
The look that says: "what are you thinking?"
As I ran past the dog walker, I kept thinking to myself, what is the point? Either you walk the dog or you text. You can't do both, right?
I guess you can, but what are you trying to accomplish?
This post really isn't about the dog. That's a whole other post.
I started thinking about how we've become this crazy, multitasking society.
I do it too. When I run, I'm always thinking about my daily photo. Looking for the perfect shot. Thinking about the perfect yoga pose. Thinking about my next blog post. Even today, I kept thinking about what I was going to write, not really focused on the run.
Last week, I was updating my phone to iOS 10. The update was taking forever and I wanted to run.
How could I run without my phone? What could I do? No picture of my run? No music?
My iPhone in the charger, I pulled out the waterproof iPod shuffle I bought for my pool running and ran with that. Running old school.
There was no daily runfie. It felt weird, but oddly, I was ok with it.
I thought about before having an iPhone, how I used to "just" run. While there was always music, there wasn't the post-run selfie. I didn't post my runs or my yoga poses to Facebook, Instagram, or any other social media channel. There was no blog.
So today, on my 54th anniversary of my trip around the sun, I think about where I'm at, running-wise and where I want to be. What do I want to accomplish? What do I want to accomplish with my running? With my social media? With this blog?
There's so much FOMO, so much competition in the running/yoga/social media world. I'm starting to pull back a little bit on the challenges. I did my bucket list race. I've connected with some amazing people. Left some behind. While I'm still running, now I get to run for fun. I'm getting back to where I started. I feel pretty good.
I've done everything, running-wise, that I wanted to do, except for running Boston. I don't know if that's attainable for me anymore. I ask myself, do I even want to do it? Sure, it would be nice. But do I want to push myself that hard again?
What do I want to accomplish?
At this point in my running life, in my fitness life, what I really want to accomplish is to show that age is just a number. I want people to stop judging me because of my age. I want to do a handstand, away from the wall. I want to do a pull-up. I want to run a 7-minute mile. Maybe become a yoga teacher.
Now it's all about having fun and enjoying the ride. There will be more races, for sure. I'm not done chasing those miles. I'm still going to indulge my love for travel. Destination races fit nicely into that plan.
We only get one trip on this crazy planet and we need to make the most of it. Through my blog, I want to inspire everyone to live life on their terms. I want everyone to realize that I am not my age. That my age is just a number. I refuse to be defined by that number.
That's what I want to accomplish. As long as you are along for the ride, I'll keep sharing my journey.
What do you hope to accomplish? Now? In a year from now? In your lifetime?
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