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Sunday, April 12, 2026

Taking Care of Myself

My mom is home from rehab, and with 24 hour care, I was able to step back a bit from my duties and resume some of my normal activities, including returning to the gym. I had a lot of things I wanted to do at home, but instead, I spent most of my time resting and reading on the couch, Cocoa by my side. There were still some challenges, especially with my father, but for the most part, being at home helped lessen the impact.

Weekly Rundown
Sunday: trail run 3.5 miles
Monday: strength training
Tuesday: trail run 6.5 miles
Wednesday: Yoga with Adriene
Thursday: strength training
Friday: run 6.2 miles
Saturday: Ice Age Trail hike 3 miles

I took a short, but sweet Easter morning run around the preserve. I was pleasantly surprised to see all the deer out and about. It's as if they knew I was going to be there--lol. With all the rain we have had lately, it was muddy and wet. The creeks were high, and the logs I normally use to cross them were submerged, making it a strategic challenge to get to the other side. I only fell in once, thankfully, but it was cold! There was a brisk wind that made it chilly despite the bright sunshine. I was happy to get a few miles in before heading out to see my mom and dad for an Easter lunch. 




With around-the-clock caregivers in place for my mom and no appointments on Monday, I stayed home and tackled my to-do list. I also returned to the gym for strength class!! I was so excited to be there. Sammy Jo gave me a big hug. We're working on Olympic lifting, and today we worked on snatches. The coaches led us through a thorough warmup to open our shoulders. We did an 18 minute 6 x 3 position snatches: high (at the upper thighs), mid (at the knees), and low (mid shin).  I was pleased with my muscle memory as I moved through these with an empty (35#) barbell. I will add more weight as we repeat the movements. The MetCon for auxiliary strength was an EMOM of 3 movements: pendalay rows (55#), barrier hops, and sit-up wallball throws. Whew!!!

Tuesday was bright and sunny, but it was cold! I headed to the trails a little later than normal, but it didn't warm up much at all. No surprise, the trails were empty, which was fine with me! The solitude, the bird songs, and the crickets singing in the marshes around the preserve made me happy.  I didn't think I'd see any deer, but near the end of my run, I saw a few in the woods, munching on some foliage. They weren't as happy to see me as I was to see them--I got a few leg stomps-- so I kept moving. 



I sure needed to go to the gym on Thursday. There's nothing better than hoisting some heavy weights to lift my mood. Similar to what we did on Monday with the snatches, we worked on cleans. Before the workout, we did another thorough warm up to prepare our bodies for these technical lifts. We did three position cleans: from the hips, the knees, and the shins (the floor), 6 sets in 18 minutes. It had been a while since I've done cleans--I think my 1 RM is 95#--but I started with 65#. Those felt adequately heavy to work on my form. By the last 2 sets, I felt really good about them. After this, we did a 10m AMRAP: landmine thrusters (55#) x 14 (7 per side), box jumps (16") x 10, and hollow holds with overhead banded lat pulldowns x 12. I completed 3 full sets + 5 box jumps. 


Friday was gray, chilly, and drizzly. I had planned a bike path run, but my access to the bike path has been cut off due to road construction. Instead, I drove to the retention pond/park with the 2 mile loop around it. My legs wanted to go, so I let them, running this fast 10k in 58:18. I left it all out there on the pavement. Sometimes, you just have to go.



We drove up to the lake on Saturday. My youngest son joined us. While the weather wasn't great, it wasn't bad either, and my son and I went for a hike on the Lodi Marsh segment of the IAT. He had never been on this trail, and I was excited to show him some of my favorite spots, including the marsh. The spring at the bottom of the bluff was flowing strongly. We also saw a few marsh marigolds blooming! After we finished, we joined the hubs for lunch and a pint at the local brewpub. 


Off the road...

To a certain extent, things have improved now that my mom is home. My mom is happy to be home, and she is getting stronger.  My dad, however, continues to be a challenge, pushing back on everything he previously agreed on to keep my mom safe. He doesn't like her sleeping in the hospital bed. Wouldn't allow them to put an alarm on the bed in case she decides to get up by herself. Doesn't like the 24-hour caregivers. These are just a few of his many complaints. After having a really ugly confrontation with him, I made the difficult decision to protect my mental health and, for the time being, no longer go out to their house unless I was transporting my mom to an appointment. I spoke to the geriatric care manager and asked her to take on a bigger role with my parents. It does, and it doesn't feel right to be less involved, if that makes sense. But with me going back to work this week, I can't afford to engage in this level of conflict with him. It will be interesting to see how he behaves with her overseeing my mom's care.

I do have some good news to share! My youngest son has made the decision to attend the University of Illinois Chicago Medical School and had his white coat fitting on Friday. The white coat ceremony, which will take place in August, is a time honored tradition welcoming medical students to the practice of medicine. It's getting real!!!


This next bit of good news I've known about for a while, but I didn't want to share it too soon: I'm going to be a grandmother! My oldest son and his wife, who were married in September, will be welcoming a baby in October! My hubs and I are over the moon with this news, and we're looking forward to this addition to our family!


How was your week? Are you seeing signs of spring? What was your best workout or run this week? Do you have any good news to share?

I'm linking up with Deborah and Kim for the Weekly Rundown. 





38 comments :

  1. Wow. That was fast but congrats. Being a grandmother is the best IMO.

    And a congrats to your younger son. A doctor in the family too.

    Our weather has been the pits. cold, rainy, windy and windy and windy.

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  2. First off, congrats to your son on selecting a medical school! What a proud moment for you and your husband! And then congrats on being a grandma! It is good to have all these positive things to offset the other awful stuff you are dealing with. Your son and DIL are so lucky to have a nurse mom close by! Having parents close by is such a gift but it’s extra wonderful if a grandparent is great with babies, as you are! My mom was a nurse and is so good with babies and very hands on with our kids which has been so wonderful for all of us!

    You made the right but hard decision to protect your mental health. I hope things improve with your dad but it sounds is incredibly hard.

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    1. Thank you Lisa! I'm very grateful to have my sisters on the same page as me. It makes it easier to take care of myself when I have that support.

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  3. So happy to read this news of your upcoming grandmotherhood! Welcome to the club.
    Wishing Matthew the very best as he embarks on his arduous journey. Thrilling beyond telling.

    On the flip side, I'm sorry to read that your Dad is being difficult. You are doing the right thing. No if or buts; your mental health is paramount, and you need to be at your best to take care not only for yourself but also for what you want to do for the rest of your family. Sending best wishes and many hugs over the internet.

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    1. I'm so grateful for your support! It has been such a challenging time and I am so glad that I also have good things to celebrate!

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  4. Well, that’s a lot of good news this week! I’m sure getting back to a semblance of your routine will make you feel better.
    Ugh on your Dad. Hopefully with you stepping a way for a bit he will realize he needs to adjust!

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    1. I don't know what's going on with him--but it does feel much better for me to have had some time away!

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  5. Wow! Double congrats to you! Both of your sons are doing spectacular. What an exciting time for you all. My parents are the opposite -it’s my dad who is really having all the medical issues and he of course thinks he knows best bc he is a Dr. We can get my mom to agree to more help etc and then he pushes back and makes her change her mind. It is not easy! Getting outside to enjoy the weather and exercise for sure help!

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    1. Interestingly, my mom needs the help, but my dad is the one pushing back. As it he even knows what she needs. Sigh.

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  6. Congrats to both of your sons! That is wonderful news, especially in the midst of all the stress you’re experiencing :-)

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  7. I love that you've gotten good news during this challenging season. Congrats to both your sons, your daughter-in-law and especially to you and your husband! My niece has made me a grand-aunt twice now and I love it!

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  8. OH MY GOSH!!!!!! That is the most exciting news ever!!! I'm so, so happy for you. I'm an aspiring grandmother- Paul and Isabel tell me I have five years to wait, and I'm patiently counting down the days. In the meantime I'll just live vicariously through you.
    Nice job of getting in some great runs and workouts this week. It must have felt good to be back on the IA trail! Glad your mom is home, sorry your dad continues to try and ruin everything. Ugh! I think your decision to step back a little is a good one, for your own mental health. You have done SO MUCH, and now you can protect your own sanity and let them handle it. Fingers crossed that everything goes well.
    Congrats to your younger son as well! You really have some good things happening right now.

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    1. I'm leaning into that good news HARD right now. I'm grateful to have that to focus on.

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  9. GRANDMA!!! Haha! I have no doubt you’re going to be a very fun one!
    I didn’t even know about the white coat fitting ceremony, but it makes perfect sense. You must be so proud.
    Stepping back sounds like a really wise move. Your parents are well cared for and you’re still present, but it probably takes a bit of pressure out of the situation and makes things feel calmer overall.

    Do you feel like you’ve lost any strength from missing your workouts? I’ll miss nearly a month while in Zurich/London and I’m starting to get a bit nervous!

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    1. My DIL told me I'm going to be the 'fun' grandma and you know that is the truth! I've already committed to babysitting one day per week while she is at work. So excited to be a part of that little one's life!

      I did lose some strength and I was super sore when I started back, but I think I'll be back to form very quickly. You'll be fine!

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  10. Double congrats to you about becoming a grandmother, and about your son and medical school! The white coat ceremony sounds so nice and must be such a good kick-off for the students.
    How good for you to get back to the gym, and your running this week looks so pleasant and you look so relaxed and happy. I know there's still trouble for you though. I imagine it's hard to step back from engaging with your dad, but I think you're making the right decision, you need to take care of yourself too! I hope you get some good rest.

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    1. You are right, it's hard to step back--not from my dad, but from my mom. She's got a lot of help and the agency is keeping abreast of any issues.

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  11. Yahoo! I'm so glad to hear these great things in your life. Congrats!! It will be interesting to see how your Dad acts. I know that was tough to pull back a bit, but I agree, I think it will be better in the long run. I bet that felt good to be able to check some things off your list and take care of yourself. You are important!

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    1. Awww, thank you! This has been one of the toughest times of my life. But thank goodness for running, fitness, my hubs, and my family!

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  12. Congratulations to both of your sons, to your oldest and his wife on their upcoming bundle of joy, and to your youngest on his medical school decision. BTW, you will LOVE being a grandmother!

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  13. WOW wow wow!! Congrats to your sons -- and congrats to you, Grandma!! How exciting!! I know you have a lot of stuff going on right now, and I've been thinking of you. I'm so glad to hear you have some things to celebrate/look forward to. Glad you can take care of yourself - it's so important!!!

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  14. Wendy! Congratulations! That's such wonderful news, and I'm sure it's extra welcome with everything that has been going on!

    I'm also so proud of you for setting boundaries. I know how hard it is to do and it does come with many conflicting emotions. I'm also sorry that your dad is struggling so badly and acting in a way that negatively impacts you.

    Congratulations to your son, as well! So wonderful!

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    1. I'm stunned at how difficult it is to set boundaries with my family--I continue to get a lot of pushback as well as pressure to take on more, especially with my dad's health. This has been a really interesting and difficult experience. Yay for good news--it sure helps.

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  15. Awww. Super awesome news on the grandbaby! What a precious gift for you right now! Much needed happiness! I sooo empathize about your dad. Mine is being just awful too! Aging isn't for the faint. I'm knee deep in removing financial control, managing his wife's health issues (because he INSISTS he doesn't have any issues) and generally trying to stay afloat! We head for Boston on Wednesday for my husband to run the marathon on Monday so I'll get a short reprieve! Hang in there!

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    1. Thank you for sharing--it's so helpful to hear from others that it isn't just my dad who is being difficult.

      How exciting for your husband!!! Good luck to him!

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    2. The things my dad says and does is both baffling and honestly heart breaking. I try to remind myself to have grace and understanding but sometimes its just so hard. Its also made me look closely at myself and what I want for the future as I age.

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  16. Oh wow! Congratulations! SO much exciting news! I'm thrilled for you and your family! My MIL "fired" her healthcare person because she insisted she was "having an affair with my FIL"! I swear I can't make this stuff up. I'm glad you could pull away a little at least for now and have some time for yourself. I know you're busy but lmk if you can do lunch some time.

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  17. I love the good news at the end of this post! What an exciting time for your family. <3

    Setting boundaries with parents is HARD. I get it. I'm glad you stood up for yourself, though, and made the tough call. It is worth it!

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    1. It continues to be a tough challenge, but I have to take care of myself too!

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  18. I think that boundary-setting is necessary. Matthew and his brother have worked out a routine where they go to their parents' place about an hour before mealtime, then there is a natural end to it. But when Matthew was really unwell with the stress and panic, he took a few weeks off visiting, and now he's taking more load now his brother is signed off work. It's hard when one of them is difficult like this, so hard. Lovely baby and education news for your boys!

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