Sunday, July 17, 2016

Becoming Unstuck

I've been putting on a brave front these last couple of weeks but I'm finally going to put it out there: this foot issue has gotten me down. I try to keep things positive here on the blog. I'm afraid if I write about feeling blue, it will only exacerbate those feelings. Plus who wants to read about my pity party? When I post positive thoughts on the blog, it makes me feel happy. The interaction I have with all of my readers reflects that.

This week I really struggled. I had trouble staying positive. Kind of stuck in a rut, so to speak. It's been nine months dealing with this and I really want it to go away.

True confession: I've got that summertime sadness. I miss running. I really do. Reality bites.

But like the runner that I am, I dug deep and ended the week with some really strong workouts and a much better attitude. I am feeling better.

Just like pushing past mile 20, right?


So how was the week?


I've started walking Cocoa after dinner. She's becoming a little skittish around people she doesn't know. I could use a little socialization. The walks have been good for both of us. We go about a mile. I've gotten to see some of my neighbors and get caught up on all the news. One of my friends gave Cocoa and me a tour of her new kitchen. We caught a few Pokemon too.

Monday: rest day. I did get in a squat with the pup, though!


Tuesday: Pool running x 1 hour. My deepening funk was not helped by a negative encounter with two folks swimming laps across the dive well. They stopped across the pool from me and I heard them loudly commenting that there should be "lap lines" in the diving well. Clearly, they were not happy with me "jogging" the perimeter of the pool. I didn't say anything to them but wanted to remind them that there is a lap pool with 8 lanes right next to the dive well. I was unable to shake it off. It didn't help that the old guy was wearing a green speedo. They eventually left the pool and I finished my workout.

Pool squats. I have freakishly long arms. Maybe long enough to slap someone upside the head.
Wednesday: Yoga at the studio. We had a vigorous, uplifting practice. After class, I chatted with one of the owners of the studio. He shared with me that he was participating in Oprah and Deepak Chopra's 21 day Meditation Experience. Like me, he struggles with focus and mindfulness. He told me that he found this practice really helpful. I have to admit that I was a little skeptical. But I decided to check it out. After all, it's free. Interestingly, the theme of the practice is "Getting Unstuck". Mind blown. It's like Oprah and Deepak know me. I slept like a baby that night.

Crow pose for the squat and plank challenge. Kind of an all-in-one pose.
Thursday: Pool running x 1 hour. Although my 16 year old was supposed to go with me and work on rehabbing that broken leg, he slept in. I went by myself and approached the pool with a whole new "I'm rubber, you're glue, words bounce off me and stick on you" attitude. Fortunately, Green Speedo was not there. Later I went to see Becky, who had me do pushups with my legs on a box (handstand pushup prep). I carried a plate above my head, one handed a la waiter style, alternating arms. Swung on the rings again. One armed rows with a dumbell alternating with backward slam balls. All good.

handstand pushup prep
Friday: rest

Saturday: I got up early and again struggled with motivation. It was a gorgeous morning and I pushed myself out the door. I rode the bike 17.25 miles. There is something to be said about those early morning workouts. Solitude. Nature. Lots of rewards.

Finding beauty in suburbia
A bounty of cranes
Sunday: I made plans with my sister to ride 25 miles. I was so looking forward to riding with someone. A thunderstorm rolled through and I thought the ride wasn't going to happen. But she was game and so was I. The sun came out and we rode through the beautiful town where she lives. Coincidently, the Venus de Miles ride takes place here and we rode some of the route. We rode side by side and talked the whole time. Good for the soul.

Taking a little break for this breathtaking view of Lake Michigan
And some sister planks!
So the foot is starting to calm down. I'm hoping to road test it in another week or so. In the meantime, the cross training continues. As does the meditation.

Like we say in yoga, namaste.

How was your week? Have you ever done meditation? If you have, can you share your experience?

I'm linking up with Tricia and Holly for Weekly Wrap as well as Angela and Ilka at the Sunday Fitness and Food Link Up!


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  1. I like guided meditation, but let's just say I struggle with making it a practice. It might appear in my runfessions this month.

    I like to be upbeat, but I also like to vent. Sometimes that's good for the soul, too. The whole situation with Bandit has got me so tired, so stressed, and I just don't see a happy ending either. Maybe I'll feel better after our trainer appt. tomorrow. It's just so sad, and so frustrating, and quite frankly I have just spend years -- again! -- devoting myself to sick animals (it was Simba before Chester), I thought I was finally going to have a fun summer & it started off so well.

    Anyway, I'm gonna try not to rain on your parade anymore. Big hugs that you are still dealing with PF and can't get your endorphins in, but if there's one thing I know about you, you won't let it get you down for long!

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    1. So sorry about Bandit. It's hard to be cheerful when things on the homefront aren't harmonious! Hoping life gets better for both of us!

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  2. I think some of the best blogs are the ones that keep it real. Great post Wendy. And lots of prayers for healing.

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    1. I tend to agree about keeping it real but it's a fine line between keeping it real and complaining. i try really hard not to do that. Hoping for healing too! I'm ready.

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  3. Wendy- I am so sorry you are struggling with the foot issue, I have been there and can empathize. It sounds like you are doing all the right things to let it heal and you are staying as active as possible with the pool jogging & cycling. I hate hearing about the ill spirited people in the pool, I just don't understand people some times, ugh!!

    I love the picture of you & Cocoa!! Also, the one of you & your sister. I love a nice bike ride with a good friend like that where I can catch up, but workout, all while being surrounded by beautiful scenery!

    Thank you for linking up with us & I will send healing vibes your way!!! :-)

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    1. It was kind of like kayaking last week...great to be with someone who gets me!

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  4. You don't have to be strong all the time Wendy! Hang in there! Next time you hear those two crimudgins talking tell them you peed in the pool.

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    1. haha! Maybe I should bring a Clark bar?

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  5. I know what you mean about not wanting to be negative or write blog posts about how much it sucks to not be running. But I think we have all been there and know its tough, and 9 months is so long to be dealing with an injury. Feel free to vent whenever you need- we will all be there for you and hopefully it will only help you feel supported!
    Something interesting I learned last week was that even though my left foot was hurting, its my right side that is weaker. I was so surprised and remember telling you recently that my left side was weaker. So apparently its an overuse injury and I need to strengthen the right side (I'm unsure if its a weak foot or weak hip but I think we are gonna work on both). Just something for you to maybe consider!

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    1. I've had it analyzed and for sure my left side is the weak link. I need to do my exercises!

      So glad to have people who get it. Thanks so much for your empathy!

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  6. I get not wanting to write about an injury that JUST ISN'T HEALING - it's tiring to live with, let alone write about and get even more "helpful" suggestions (because really, you've heard them all by now, I'm sure). But it's good to vent! You have every right to feel down...nine months is a long time to be hurting. I hope this goes away for you, and soon.

    Cocoa the puppy is getting so big! What a cutie pie.

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    1. She's so bad. That's all. It's a good thing she's so cute!

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  7. I hope things get better soon, I know posting positive is usually best but sometimes venting helps too.

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    1. Venting helps but it doesn't make it better. It's just been a tough week all around. Hoping things are on the upswing.

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  8. I just wrote in my blog post a few days ago (post - reflect) about how I had just started the 21 day chopra/oprah meditation because my yoga instructor Jake started doing it... he has been doing it for a few years no.... 6 days in and I do enjoy it... not necessarily as much the meditation part as the opening talk and sentence for the day which I love.... in the meditation part, it is really hard for my find to not wander... but I actually am enjoying it....

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    1. Glad to hear it! Yes, my mind wanders but I keep repeating the mantra. I agree with you, the opening talk is really empowering.

      Now to head over to read your blog post. How did I miss it?

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  9. I understand that injury frustration all too well. Keep on keeping it real. It is impossible to be positive 100% of the time. I never got any comments, but certainly had my share of "if looks could kill" moments while pool running. Your bike rides sound wonderful, especially the one with your sister. (My sister left this morning after a very short visit.) I'm really loving cycling right now. It sure is easier on the body. Hugs to you, my friend. Thanks for linking, Wendy.

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    1. Thanks Holly. I knew you'd get it! I do love my bike. But it's getting tiresome riding alone! I loved having my sister along this morning.

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  10. You do keep it positive and humorous but it's also good to let us know when things aren't so hot. We as a community are strong supporters of each other, able to commiserate without judgment and hold each other up through the bad times as well as cheering each other for the successes.
    We, all of us, I daresay, are all here for you, lending our ears and strong shoulders.

    I hope that the days and weeks ahead show steady improvement with the PF.

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    1. You've been so supportive and I am so grateful for that! Thank you.

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  11. I know what you mean about trying to keep your blog positive. Sometimes wallowing in the bad makes it so much worse. That being said, I so appreciate your honesty and your struggles. Admitting it often clears the air in your head, so I hope that's the case for you!
    By the way....with those long arms, you should totally look into swimming. That wingspan would take your far down the lanes. :)

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    1. I've been hearing that comment about swimming from a few people...I may end up taking up swimming over the winter. We'll see how things shake out with the foot!

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  12. So sorry your foot is still bothering you! When my foot was broken last summer I vacillated between updeat posts and woe-is-me posts, because that's how my mood fluctuated. Your upper body strength is amazing though!

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    1. I'm glad that I made upper body strength my focus this summer--kind of funny how things work out!

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  13. Ugh. You know I have my issues at the pool. Mean people suck. So sorry the PF is hanging on. I've tried and tried to meditate. My mind either wanders or I fall asleep. Ha!

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    1. Yeah, this is the first time I've been able to meditate. I still have mind wandering issues but the way Deepak and Oprah set it up, I'm pretty good!

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  14. It stinks that you're still dealing with your foot issues. I'm doing the 21 meditation experience too - I enjoy how I feel when I meditate, but have fallen out of practice lately. I figure the Chopra session will get me back in a groove. Sending you lots of healing vibes - hang in there!!

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    1. Glad to hear you're doing the meditation too! I'm in good company!

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  15. Cute pics of you and your sister. Sorry to hear that you are still dealing w foot pain. At least you are still being active and getting your jogs in around the pool. It is a public place so who cares what ppl have to say! Good job!

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    1. My goal is to stay in as good shape as I can when I'm ready to get back on the road. But it is a struggle with no end goal in sight.

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  16. I am not big on meditation, though we do finish yoga class usually with 15 or 20 minutes... I find the yoga has helped me focus enough. Your body is probably loving the running break you are giving it and you will come back much stronger.

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    1. I keep telling myself that I need this break but for some reason, it's wearing on me. Probably because of the PF hanging on so long.

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  17. I totally understand your struggle. Both from 8 months ago as well as right now! If you ever need to talk, I'm right here. Also, I will go and loudly comment on how people shouldn't wear Speedos unless they can fill them out correctly. That should shut them up.

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    1. I thought of you as I wrote this post. Pretty sure we've gone through a lot of the same feelings.

      There is a guy who fills out his Speedo perfectly. In the lap pool.

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  18. Injuries and mean rude people suck. Sorry you are in a funk :( Hard not to be when you can't run, but it looks like you are doing good staying active still.
    I have tried meditation but its so hard for me. That sitting still thing... I am better at quieting my mind if my body is moving

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    1. That last statement you made is the absolute truth! I can focus so much better if I have something to distract me.

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  19. I wish I could hug you in person....you had your chance (early, VERY early) Saturday morning ;-) Seriously, I think your attitude has been better than you're aware. Aches & pains (even the manageable ones) are STILL unwelcome when we got business to do (like training, for example). I had mixed feelings on my decision to scale back my mileage, but it was worth it. I'm actually looking forward to a week with NO running (after I do that #nevermissaMonday mile later today LOL). Chin up, my FrIeNd! ;-)

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    1. I would love that hug! I really hit rock bottom this week. It's been hard to hold it together, and I think everything that has happened since Big Sur has finally worn a hole in my shield...

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  20. Sorry to hear that you are having a rough time of it. We all go through times like that especially when injured. It can seem like it is never ending. Look how amazingly strong you are? Your time off from running has helped you with this so there's that right? Virtual hugs hang in there

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    1. Oh, I'm so glad I've been able to focus on upper body strengthening. Funny how things work out, isn't it?

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  21. I was feeling the same way when I wasn't making any progress with my ITBS. I knew I had to keep at it, but it was so discouraging and I couldn't help but feel defeated some days. I did what you're doing, any activity I could do I was. That part kept me sane and I only had a couple "woe is me" days.

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    1. I've had way more woe is me days than I will ever admit. Ugh.

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  22. Oh! Biking with your sister sounds like so much fun!!

    Green speedo? oohh.... that sounds painful enough, I would say that is his punishment for being a pain!

    I hope the foot continues to feel good and strong!

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  23. I can totally feel your pain. My knee has been acting up and I've not been able to run for a couple weeks. Tried it out last week only to have it flare up again. Thankfully I'm biking a ton and doing yoga and strength training, but I love running! As I know you do. Thanks for sharing. This too shall pass...right?? :-)

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    1. I keep hoping. I read a lot about PF and that's what all the so-called experts say..it will pass...

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  24. Ugh those people at the pool. what the hell.

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  25. I definitely fell into a mini depression when I couldn't run a few years ago. It sucks so bad. That said, I'm glad you are finding some other forms of exercise to keep you invigorated. I am going to check out that Meditation thing! Also - F those people at the pool. Who needs 'em?

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    1. I've been really struggling with depression since I've been off the road. Normally I"m ok but this has been a really persistent, annoying injury!

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  26. I'm so sorry you aren't feeling like yourself. Running is a big part of who you are and it is only normal for you to feel a little off and down when you can't do it. I am glad to see that you are still doing other activities to keep you occupied.

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    1. I'm keeping occupied but yes, I miss running a lot!

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  27. Not running is so hard! You are being so smart and strong to listen to your body and NOT run though. Keep it up.

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    1. I finally caved this morning. My brain was calling for a run. I did 4 and feel like a new woman.

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  28. Its only natural that after not being able to do something for awhile that you'll feel down. Don't feel bad about sharing your true thoughts on your blog. Here's a virtual shoulder for you to lean on. :)

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  29. I'm glad your foot is calming down. At least your break from running won't be for naught! I hate when I can't run though. Even though it's just part of being a lifelong runner, it still sucks and doesn't get much easier!

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  30. Oh, Wendy. I'm sorry that you are in a funk right now. It's so hard to snap out of it, and I'm sure the summer heat isn't helping much.

    Green Speedo needs to get over himself. You are all out there, trying to accomplish the same goals (stay fit and active) and he has no more right to the space than you. I support any upside head smacking should you run into him again.

    You are doing a fabulous job of keeping on top of things and keeping yourself busy. I know it isn't running, but you will get back there. :hugs:

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    1. Funny thing...yesterday I just couldn't bear the thought of dealing with him at the pool, so I took it to the road.

      Probably the best thing I've done in a while. I feel so much better.

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  31. I love my yoga class and that is as close to meditation as I get. Sounds like you had a nice visit with your sister though :) Mr Green Speedo was probably firming up his retirement plans for Florida- we usually have his type here! Keep moving, I know this will pass for you! XXOO

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    1. Oh, I can only imagine all the Green Speedos in Florida. Actually, last year I saw an old guy in a yellow speedo on the beach at Anna Maria. Now that takes balls...

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  32. I definitely understand the frustration around injury. It is so, so hard! But you are getting some great workouts in which can help a bit. The pool comment is crazy- everyone has opinions and I'm amazed how immature adults can be.

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    1. Seriously. Immature sums it up! Of course, who nicknamed the guy Green Speedo? LOL

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  33. Nice to know you're somewhat feeling better! Way to get those workouts in! Great that you got that bike ride in with your sister! Hope you have a better week ahead!

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    1. It will be better--I start a week vacation tomorrow!

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  34. I struggle with negativity at times, so I can totally relate. I think it's great that you're still so committed to cross-training and strength training despite being unable to run. I hope your foot recovers soon!

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    1. It's not easy to do those cross training activities when I'm not running. Interesting how it all fits together!

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  35. I haven't really meditated, but I do love yoga! It's so good for both a physical and a mental reset. I really can relate to ongoing frustration. I haven't been injured, but I have been chronically sick for about a year and a half. That can really wear on you. Good job with your workouts!

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    1. In the big picture, PF is nothing and I know that. I keep thinking how selfish it must sound to people who have real problems. Talking to people with chronic illnesses really puts it all in perspective. I hope you are doing ok!

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  36. Sorry to hear you are still dealing with foot pain. Hoping it recovers soon! Nice that you got a good bike ride with your sister. I'm looking forward to spending time with mine when she comes down to visit.

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    1. I love spending time with her. Isn't it funny how our sisters get us?

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  37. You are still managing to do an awful lot in spite of your foot injury. And I think it's totally fine (respectable, even) to open up and express negative feelings on a blog. We all have them sometimes. Hope your foot feels better soon!

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    1. The blog is kind of a public diary, isn't it? Thanks for listening!

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  38. What is wrong with pool people? I had a rough moments when I went during my stess fracture, I decied after that no more...and it was just to far from home. I like being able to put on my shoes and just go.
    You had some great moments last week...a sister ride, seeing Becky, lots of sunshine, but I know it is not the same.
    I do pray sometimes to get myself out of funk or say a scripture over in my head, I guess that is like meditation :) I am going to check it out...beats drinking more wine!

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    1. It really doesn't beat drinking more wine, but it keeps me from doing that!

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  39. I think I could really benefit in the practice of meditation. If for nothing else to train my brain to turn off. My world is so very busy and it is easy to get caught up all the time and never really shut down. Hugs to you friend on your foot.

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    1. I just have to remember to do it! LOL

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  40. My feature for this week's Sunday Fitness & Food Link-Up. Great read!

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  41. I struggle with mindfulness as well. I can not seem to get myself to relax. EVER. That pic of you and your sister is awesome. Lake Michigan looks like the Caribbean in those pics! Beautiful!

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    1. Lake Michigan in the summer is amazing!

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